(this post may be a little sad to you)
Today at work, while crocheting like a grandma, I had a weird thought.
I’m going to die soon.
And I guess it’s not that weird, because everyone has to die. And I don’t know if it will be tomorrow or years from now, but I’m going to die soon. (PLEASE do not take this as a suicide post, I promise you, it’s not!)
But I had a kinda, out of body experience thinking about death. Questions raced through my head:
1. What will it be like?
2. Will I be able to feel anything?
3. Have I accomplished all the things that I want to?
4. What will happen next?
Then suddenly, I was overwhelmed by a calm feeling. I wasn’t afraid anymore (after almost having a panic attack). I felt safe, and warm.
GUYS. That was God.
That was God wrapping me up in His arms and telling me to stop worrying. He was telling me that His plan for me is perfect, and will be perfect, no matter what.
What an incredible feeling. Perfect peace.
I just want everyone to experience that feeling.
Granted, the world around us seems to be falling apart: major crimes involving death, hate towards certain groups, droughts, hunger, soaring prices on gas and food, etc. But God has a hand in all of this. It may be very hard to believe, but all of this pain and suffering is preparing us for Him. We feel hurt, scared, frustrated, and unloved…then just like the knight in shining armor that He is, He will scoop us up in His arms and fill our hearts with peace, understanding, and His love. How beautiful is that?
I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring me, but I pray that you and I will wake up (God willing) and tell God that we give Him our lives to mold them into the perfect person He has made us to be. I pray that we can all forget about our selfish wants and just die to His will.
God is so good.
God is so real.
And God loves all of us.
I just pray that we can all open our hearts up to Him!
God bless each and every single one of you!